Oh this is why I hate facebook, you have no room to be your own person.  I have never been one to hold back my thoughts or opinions so thank goodness for you, dear blog.  Last night after a few beer I changed my status to .. "There are worse things in life than hipsters, they include :  rap music, longboarding, dubstep, the owl (bar) .. Am I missing anything"?

I woke up to my status blown up, "Oh no, this girl voiced her opinion"!! And all that was written under 'comments' was defence against rap music, longboarding and someone voicing that there is TONS of good rap out there and blah blah.

a) You people missed the point of my status completely, I am sick of hearing the term "hipster fags" or "art fags".  Because they sure as shit dress alot better then you, probably have way better music/ art knowledge then you do.  They are creative and passionate about alot of things, weather it be society, history, photography, art, beer knowledge .. moral : they know alot.

b) I can't stand when people take offence to people that have an opinion.  I apologize I will never line up with todays society or todays people.  I have my own opinions.  I was raised to have an opinion, and stick to my guns about it.

Change.

People who shouldn't change do, and people who need to change won't. .

I can't believe this citys got you too.

Bert Jansch

One grain of pure white snow
Dissolved in blood spread quickly to your brain
In peace, your mind withdraws
Your death so near your soul can't feel no pain

Your troubled young life
Had made you turn
To a needle of death.

Fire On Babylon

You're gunna catch a cold,
from the ice inside your soul.

collecting your jar of hearts.

Photos for thought. ..

In my Critical History of Photography class today, my prof brought up an extremely important subject that I have thought about since noon today.  In a sense, is photography bringing out the passiveness or the lack or remorse in all of us?  She asked this, by asking the class how many photos of starving children in Africa we see each week/month/year.  Then she asked us how many of us look at the photo and actually feel something?  Or, like most, do we keep turning the page or the television channels?  I thought this was extremely interesting because as a photographer myself, I never realized that although it has given us miles of opportunity, like knowing what the Eiffel tower looks like without actually having to visit Paris, but it also engraves a sort of continuous lack of emotion in us all.  In the late 1870's it would have virtually crushed the population to see what is going on in Africa and how the majority of them are living, but today we see this as a societal norm.  I do still believe that wasn't the intent of all of the 'help the children' pictures, and I do believe they were out to do their job, but when you start taking thousands upon thousands of these photos, the public will surely turn a blind eye, like the majority of the western cultures.  It is really too bad that something so honest and beautiful can be swept under our feet so abruptly.

I was not meant to live in this world...

Maybe I missed a chromosome, perhaps I was dropped as a baby,  I may even have more animal in me but I was not meant to live in a world that :

-More credit is given to an artist like Katy Perry rather then real talent such as Neutral Milk Hotel.
-Watches Jersey fucking shore.  I don't care what the excuse is, "It's funny", "It's great entertainment", "I love that show".  What kind of society do we live in today where watching fucking disgusting, talentless  guidos grease up their bodies, touch themselves and puke all over the place, is entertainment?
- The second I turn on the radio in the morning, the first thing I hear about is ... celebrity scandals!!?@@!?& Who gives a shit?  Am I the only soul left that feels like our world is heading for the greatest disaster yet?  Why is this relevant, why is this okay to be wasting hours upon hours trying to decipher who's implants look more real?
-Money deciphers whether or not you 'made it'.  What happened to real goals in life here guys?  What happened to 'happiness' being at the top of life's lists?  They tell you right out of high school to go straight to college because with no degree, you will make NO MONEY and be miserable and loathing for the rest of your years.  This isn't true, I have traveled to many parts of Europe and many parts of Central America where it is visually EVIDENT that money means NOTHING.  Where stores aren't open on Sundays, Mondays, or whatever day they don't feel like going to work because taking their daughter for ice cream, frankly, was way more important.  Where having dinner with the family meant sitting down from 5pm until 9pm trading stories, dancing and laughing.  This place is so messed up and I hope to never be apart of it, well mentally, however.

Enero

I am going back to university tomorrow, I feel :

Shaken' up, excited, freaked out, confused, broke.

Tonight I shot my boyfriend's friend's band album cover & realized how much I miss my camera.  I haven't been taking enough photos lately, I don't have the time.  My sister left me for Halifax again this morning, and I already miss her.  Thank goodness for you my dear, otherwise it would be a long, cold winter.

Things that are true ::

- there is nothing sexier then a mohawk
- dub step is THE WORST thing that ever happened to music.
- 9/10 girls suck
- regina should be in the '100 places NOT to see before you die' book.
- Saturday night was loco..
- I am never drinking again.

Feliz Ano Nueve!

I couldn't be happier, not if I tried.  Not even being in Croatia could have me feeling this good right now.  My life is a constant rollercoaster filled with crazy ups and downs but somehow I find joy in all of this.  I was just told I was going to be sponsored again this winter//  I start University again on Wednesday.  My cousin has decided to stay in Regina until further notice & my good friend isn't moving back to the States!  The only thing missing in my life right now is Big White.  However I have more then made up for it during the holidays.  Last winter I had my family (which is just fine) alone to celebrate with, this year thanks to Madlin' I have a second!