A huge piece of my heart died today. Rest in peace my beautiful cat.
June 12th 1999 - July 27th 2011.
Wednesday, July 27, 2011
Thursday, July 14, 2011
siete.
During what has been one of the hardest weeks of my life, I can honestly say I have learned more about humanity & greed then I have in my entire life time. I have never been so appreciative to have such wonderful people in my life, but people I least expected to be there for me in the absolute worst of times. It is Thursday, and since Monday afternoon I have got nothing but awful news. My good friend passed away on Tuesday, and well the rest I don't want to get into. I have had such a good year up until now that I knew there was bound to be a setback (or two). I appreciate the following more than anyone possible :
Chaunce, Kyle, Kool-Aid, Alexie, Jenny, Eldon, Deed, Kelsey, Mom & Dad.
Nobody teaches you how to cope with death or depression. Everyone is afraid to talk about it. I have never had to deal with this during 22 years of my life, and in a week I have dealt with it twice. I always look around and wonder, "What if these people knew what was going on?" "Would this guy have just flipped me the bird for driving too slow if he knew what I was going through"? And then it hit me, that for 22 years, since I have never had to deal with death, that this has been something I have never considered.
It is true, that everyone has a story that would break your heart. And as I sit here pounding the keys of my Mac, wishing I could just wake up and this nightmare go away, I have reached an epiphany. We need to stop and smell the flowers. We need to be kind to one another. I don't expect sympathy from anyone, but I did expect my best friends to be with me during this week from hell. I know this is bad, when it hurts to smile, and everything I see/hear reminds me of these two. I can't help but think there was something I could have done.
Oh 22, you started out so well, please don't fail me now.
Chaunce, Kyle, Kool-Aid, Alexie, Jenny, Eldon, Deed, Kelsey, Mom & Dad.
Nobody teaches you how to cope with death or depression. Everyone is afraid to talk about it. I have never had to deal with this during 22 years of my life, and in a week I have dealt with it twice. I always look around and wonder, "What if these people knew what was going on?" "Would this guy have just flipped me the bird for driving too slow if he knew what I was going through"? And then it hit me, that for 22 years, since I have never had to deal with death, that this has been something I have never considered.
It is true, that everyone has a story that would break your heart. And as I sit here pounding the keys of my Mac, wishing I could just wake up and this nightmare go away, I have reached an epiphany. We need to stop and smell the flowers. We need to be kind to one another. I don't expect sympathy from anyone, but I did expect my best friends to be with me during this week from hell. I know this is bad, when it hurts to smile, and everything I see/hear reminds me of these two. I can't help but think there was something I could have done.
Oh 22, you started out so well, please don't fail me now.
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